Okay first off let's just talk about this picture. Call me crazy but I kinda like matching my son and my husband. They are never wearing the exact same thing but pretty darn close. We bought this these flannel shirts the same day but didn't realize until we got home that they were super close to the same. So of course I made him wear it the same day as Rhenn. These two guys right here are my whole entire world.
Anywho..
I have always been a person who LOVES babies, I was tending kids constantly and always wanted to hold people's kids whenever I got the chance. So when my little Payton Jane was born I was excited... okay that's an understatement I was beyond excited. I had been begging Shell and Brad forever to have a baby. I even told them for the first year of her life I would buy her clothes. (that was the only thing that Brad thought was a good enough deal) Of course I didn't do that but the amount I tended her and the other things I bought made up for it. hahah
I spent every second that I could at the hospital when she was born because I was so in love and couldn't get enough of her. I also enjoyed the hospital for the unlimited diet coke but that's besides the point. I loved having a baby that I knew I could take or play with whenever I wanted to.
Everyone knew how much I loved her. I posted thousands of pictures with her because there was not a day that went by that I didn't see her. We ended up being the best of friends. I got told from a lot of people that I just need to wait until I have my own children and the love that I have for her will double towards my own children. I thought there was no way I could love someone more than I loved this little girl. In my mind I just thought they don't know how much I really love her. Three years later I was blessed to have my own little bundle of joy.
To my surprise all of those people were right. I love my Jane a lot but there is just something about a baby being your own. They come with an indescribable amount of love. I know everyone that has children will say the same thing. It just kind of surprised me because I thought I knew what it was like to love someone more than I knew I could but my love has just expanded to fit him along with everyone else.
One year ago today November 12, 2014 I found out that I was having a little boy. I always had a feeling that I was going to have a boy and before we knew what we were having I would call him a him. I was worried it was going to be a girl and I had been calling her a him but I was right! Seeing Rhenn on the machine and feeling him kick around made it seem more real to me that I was really having a baby. For some reason it was just hard to wrap my head around the fact that I was really having a baby, even though I knew I was. (I am crazy I know) Normally the closer people get to their due date it becomes more real and they start nesting, I never got that way. I don't know if I was just working so much or what. I just felt like he had already been in me for so long and he was just always going to be a part of me. I think it was secretly a blessing because I have very bad anxiety and I think if I thought about it a lot more than I did and if it seemed more really I would panic a lot more. The day after Rhenn's due date I went to have a non stress test and after that they told me that I was going to have my baby today. While sitting at the hospital all day long it still didn't feel real until after he was born. I saw him come out and they laid him on me and it took a good few min before it hit me and it all seemed real and I knew he was mine forever. From that day on I have been OBSESSED with Rhenn. I find myself more often than not just staring/ooing/aahhing over him. I wonder how come I am so lucky to be blessed with an amazing little spirit. I could go on and on about how in love and obsessed I am with Rhenn but I guess that's enough for today.
Here are some photo's of the cuteness:
He loves to scream and hear his voice so this is mid scream.
I eat those roll's on a daily basis.
I think he gets annoyed with how many pictures I take of him. But I just can't help myself I need to share the cuteness I get to witness.
I wasn't kidding when I said he likes to scream all the time.
This is a regular occurrence at our house. Rhenn has learned to hold his own bottle but sometimes he holds it upside down and lets milk run all over his face.
My little big boy, he thinks he is big enough to sit up in the bathtub instead of laying down. If I try and lay him down he lifts his head as high as he can and tries to sit up. (Thank goodness for his milk belly, it helps keep the picture clean haha )
I know it's kind of blurry but he is the happiest ever in the morning. I am not sure why little kids are that way, I usually wake up kind of groggy. He is all laughs and smiles every morning.
Even though we have hardwood floor and it's uncomfortable Rhenn rolls all over the place. The other day he rolled and knocked our little skeleton girl on him. He just kept kicking his legs like help! Get this thing off me!
Until next time.
~We Three Kings
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